we shed what was left of our summer skin

yeah. i'm not ready to let summer go. and i wish i was doing something epic during the end of it. but no, i'm just finishing up summer school. great. i might see if my grandma wants to go to borders with me. that would be fun.
love always, kate

Backseat Goodbye, Ladybug Landslide, and more (08/02/08)

So I must say that last night was so much fun! it was sooo hot out though! we walked inside to pay, and chad was like BAM right there. i was like woahh!! i thought he was more "famous" or whatever. lol. but as soon as we got in, this guy came up and was like oh hai who are you? lol, it was fun. meredith and i ended up becoming bffs with that guy, haha. anyway, i went to the merch tables and stuff, and it was fun. i got ladybug's cd. im listening to it now, it's good! anyway, so we waited outside, cause it was hot! but yeah. the first singer we saw was REALLY good! his "band" or whatever is called A Timely Embrace. we kind of hung with him afterwards, he was kind of shy. then was this rock band called The Story Changes played. they were pretty good and stuff. we went outside after every band. then was ladybug, who was AMAZING, duh. then was aim for the skies, but we just stayed outside, cause they weren't the best, lol. chilled with marshall lee (ladybug) for a bit. he's a sweetie. then was backseat, so we went inside for that, duh. it was sooo good. he was making fun of zach during technicolor eyes (the who are you guy) so yeah. it was so hilarious! hahahah. and yeah...my dad came RIGHT at the end of backseat, so i asked for his setlist, and i got it! :D i feel lucky to have gotten it, haha. then then then.. idk. i forgot to get my poster that i got from ladybug..so i'm mad. and we had an opportunity to go to spinellis(pizza) for an after party, but idk.. i just felt uncomfortable..but now today, looking back on it, i wish that i had gone. ='( im pretty bummed about that. but yeah. i must say that it had to be one of the best nights of my life, for real. i enjoyed it. :D

p.s. there was a lot of "that's what she said.." and stuff. chad was really funny, but shy. and during his set, he was like "what if instead of saying 'woo' after a song, people said random words...like 'ccccroooockkkidile'" hahah. then people started screaming random ass words. haahha, someone was like "SPIDERMAN!" haha, and then i was looking at chad's pictures, and he's in a spiderman suit. lol.

love always, kate

yesterday

i don't want to talk about warped.
if you really want to know, tell me
but i don't want to talk about it

today was fun

first, i might go overseas
second, i got a message from Kenny
third, i might actually be able to see cobrahhhh

i love talking to candice on the phone, while she views the maine's buzznet videos
it's fun

love always, kate

love is all you need

michelle leaves today
i'm glad that i was stupid, and thought she left yesterday
i'm so so so sad she's leaving though.
who will i be able to talk to about warped, or who will be the one to actually ASK about how it went!?
idk. blah. just one week..and i'll be busy, so that'll be good.
i'm spending the night at candice's tuesday
i'm excited
she always spends the night over here, hahaha.

today i have a lot of cleaning to do
and summer school
and going to target (again) to get (more) clothes

what is it with british actors
jim sturgess
matthew mcfayden
oh, and cute boys in bands?
(i wish i could even BEGIN to name the huge list)

warped is wednesday. so so so so so excited!!! i'm going to spend TOO much money though. holy cow.

p.s. i love court. she needs a pick me up


that's all today
love always, kate

i know i love you, if that's all we can take

i'm so so so busy this coming up week or so
July 26- Anthony's party, then Marina's party
July 30-Warped tour!
July 31-Sydney's art show thing. :D :D
August 1-Breaking Dawn book release party!
August 4-Transfer student orientation/What Made Milwaukee Famous concert
August 6-The Sisterhood Of The Traveling Pants comes out
August 11-The Promise Hero concert.
August 14-start school

whew. and my cousin's in town, so i'll be doing stuff with him.
and tons of appointments all mixed in there.
and then i still need to work on summer school, which i haven't really even started? ='( that's the one thing i'm stressed about. majorly.

i'm working on her package. and mixtape thing
:] i just found ANOTHER song that i need to add. lol. :]

that's it for now
ta-ta
Kate

anyway, yeah. i'm going to be so super busy

today is MY day

tonight's the benefit concert
i cannot tell you how excited i am
even though i wont be there
i'm helping people in a way
and giving people hope to know that
fibromyalgia IS a real disease,
and not all in your head, and
that many many people go through it on a daily
basis. :] and i am so thankful for Jennifer Hill.
and the three other bands that are helping
her with this, and just everyone working on it
i'm so happy about this. eeek!!


anyways, i'm going to warped!! i'm way excited. i need to do odd jobs though. or i need money, ahah. i want a few shirts and such. michelle comes back (again) from camp today! yay! eek. i'm so happy now, hehehehehh. wee, yay.

i think candice is coming over today!! yesss. i'm looking for a ring/necklace with a fleur de leis. or a simple clada(sp?) ring. i miss mine.

today is going to be good, even though i woke up at four and almost threw up, lol. i'm good now!

that is all for now. blog tomorrow after i talk to Jen!

love always, Kate

wow.

you really make me not want to be your friend anymore
or say nice things anymore
anywayyy, michelle's home! yay! even if it's just for a part of a day, i'm way excited. and her STOYS date is tonight!! eek! i had her print off a letter that i wrote, and hopefully my favorite people will see it! :D
tomorrow i volunteer and then i'm going to see mamma mia with my mom and her best friend denise, who i really look up to. i'm excited. and then saturday, saturday is MY day. that's the day of the benefit concert. i wish you could see how happy and excited i am!
i've been over all really happy this week!! little things make me laugh, and i love that so much. i turned in like four applications, so i really hope i get a call back. !!
i wonder what's august fourth. hmmm...
love always, kate

cause you're a good girl

woo. job hunting today
i hope it's not brutally hot
i'm going to bring a few things of water
yay.
i'm glad courtney and i have started texting
why didn't we realize before how much we were alike?!
i'm really starting not to care about the little things
in a good way. like, i don't care that i don't make you happy
because, you know, right now i am SO happy where i
am at, and so content. and if you don't want to share
this happiness with me, then yeah. lawl.
okay, gots to go get ready
yay

The Maine, Metro Station, Boys Like Girls (and good news!!)

so my mri went FINE, except i have a sinus infection, haha. i guess when i complained to my mom that she really should've listened, huh? lol. and then there's something with my lower spine.. but they don't know what to do..the main doc isn't in... so we'll see thursday i think?

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okay, on to concert review!

so we got there at 415ish. i was surprised at how many people were there already, lol. and there was a flip flop there, someone wasn't wanting to sit in the sun or something. idk. whore, lol. anyway, so we stand for a little bit, and then we decide to scope people out. the girls behind us were REALLY sweet, and i ended up hanging with them the whole time, and getting their myspaces, etc. cool people, betsey and tran. ANYWAY. so the first we saw was jared. so we yelled for him. he had a shirt with a flying pig on it. and a necklace with a dog tag that said stay positive. i've been looking for it, but the one company doesn't sell them anymore. if you're going to warped, let me know. cause they have a booth, and i want that dog tag, lol. anyway, we hung out, and i told him he was my favorite. i feel bad because no one likes him. ='( but he was like WOW, REALLY!?! so yeah. and then.. i met john ohhhh. ;] what a cutie. he had a shirt that said i heart boobies. hahah. and then... i saw...pat? i think. but i called him kennedy. he didn't correct me either. he's so cute. damn. but he was in a rush, but i made him call sarsh anyway. and then was garrett. wait, i think i saw garrett before pat. idk. but yeah, garrett called michelle. i think she might of flipped out. im not sure ;] but he really turned my off cause he spit twice like right in front of me, while talking. bleggghhh. and he rode on his little scooter or whatever, and it was really cute. (when we told jared later, he was like, garrett has a scooter?!) ahha, it must have been someone elses.
but yeah, then as soon as candice took that picture of garrett on his scooter, ALL our pictures got deleted. i have never been SO pissed. idk why, i just could have punched something. but yeah, then after that we stood around and such... took another picture with pat. his shirt had the same stay positive thing on it as jareds dogtag. i'm getting that shirt today i believe.
we(she) went to ichiban which was like two feet away. i didn't want sushi, but i got water. i have never drank more water in my LIFE. i think like four or five cups, man.
so anyway, we move up in line or whatever, and just watched it get longer and longer. i saw a lot of moms with their kids too..like wtf?!
so we get in and it's SO jammed pack. i really wanted to be on the floor, but it was like 30 feet back, so i was like no. so i found tran and betsey, and stood with them. still could barely see. the maine did REALLY good. they have a couple videos on their buzznet. but, i could barely hear. i honestly think it wouldve been better on the floor. idk. but we saw ant in the doorway, and then while they were playing martin johnson like walked by right in front of us a few times. tran really like them, and she gave him a picture, idk, some blg fan thing. he laughed though. but i can't remember the set list whatsoever, i'm going to ask on lj if anyone knows it.
then metro station came out. it was pretty damn good. waiting for them to come on i almost passed out. you could literally not breathe. oh well. but then they got off, it was a REALLY good set, there's a couple videos on youtube (search metro station club oasis louisville ky) and yeah. you'll see how rediculous mason is in his LONG SLEEVE jacket. lol. it was cute though. trace was the only one that even looked in my little side balcony thing we were in. of course everyone was like "ohmigod, i love trace!!! *Dies*" hahah. i was like "woo" hhaha. honestly, i was so tired and hot and sore and dizzy i didn't know if i could make it. trace left like before their last song. he said something in the mic (couldn't hear anything) and went off stage. everyone was looking around like what the HELL?!?! ahahhahaah. but he came back. he might have thrown up. most likely did. maybe just got fresh hair. idk.
and honestly, after that, i didn't really stay for blg. when i walked away from the spot where i was standing, everything kind of blurred, and i flipped out. i had to sit down. and it was one of the first time wearing my chucks, which was a bad idea, lol. we met a few other people, got their info, and went out to get air. and meet the maine and chill with them again. i love kennedy and jared, they're my favorites. and of course, pat is so adorable. reallyyyy shy though.

all in all, it was good. horrible venue though, i will NEVER EVER go back, unless it's andrew mcmahon or something, haha.

p.s. look at the maine's buzznet videos. there is one with this waitress that gives kennedy a kiss and turns purple. nope, not red, purple. hahahaha. kennedy's like... what? pat keeps on stuttering, and garret makes a face. i love it.


"woahh.. wasn't that a clusterfuck"-john ohh

until next time!

:]

jeannette has THAT song on her myspace
:D happy kate
blog later about concert
maybe later as in five minutes
idk
haha, i just need to get these results back NOW.

whew, glad that's over

mri's are finished. need...sleep.
so so so so so tired
i have like an hour here until my grandma takes me home. ugh.
it was a little scary, they had my head in this football helment type thing or whatever, but yeah. i almost fell asleep. haha.
now to go home, pack, and sleep, finally.
i'll be in nashville allllll weekend.
see you guys later

no comment.

but i'm crying now
like literal tears down my face
where they hell did it all go
now it's all back to me.
all my fault
when is it never?

music

music is the only thing there any more. the only thing that i can really count on being there always, 24/7.
to set my mood, etc.
music, and books.
but yeah..
i'm hoping to rekindle a few friendships
and such.
this week is gunna be crazy
cleaning, volunteering, that person coming to my house, and then going to nashville
i'm getting my hair cut and colored
the start of the "new" me
:) i'm really excited, man.
p.s. i got new shoes
pretty cool.

and no one's there for me tonight.

i need someone, badly.
i need to talk to someone
mostly, just her.
i'm hanging out with julianne tomorrow, i believe.
i'm excited. really excited. it'll be akward at first, for sure, but i hope it isn't too bad. i'm very excited.
i hurt. my insides do. i wish i didn't screw everything up. i am heading towards a breakdown, and no one will be there.
i feel like crying.
i'm ripping apart on the inside.
please, someone, give me help and support.

this is me saying words that i actually mean.

i hurt. everywhere. my throat, my ________, my body, my heart.
i hate trying so hard, to make something work
it makes me exhasted, and at the end of the day, i get nothing accomplished.
horse track today. churchill downs. i am not up for it though. i hurt, way to bad.
oh well.
bye.

back to the beginning

i'm freaking depressed
reading your blog made me depressed
wanting to be YOUR best friend again.
wanting that giddy feeling all over.
want to be the ONE you want to make happy
not HER.
wanting to be the one you wait for the all
the letters. the one you USED to love
remember me? I'm still here. I'm
trying damn hard.


my mom chose the wrong day to say i have another doctor to go to, two mri's, bloodwork, AND a ultrasound. i'm flipped out. what if i have cancer?!?!? i won't be able to handle it anymore. I'm not that strong.

I can't keep fighting these urges to stop doing that one thing.
it drains me, every day. one day, i'm gunna do it, but worse
than i ever have.

blah. not in a good mood today. a foreshadow of things to come?

kate

The secret handshake, we the kings, and cobra starship. wow.

so the concert last night was AMAZING. it was seriously like the best time that I have probably have ever ever ever. and i don't freaking care the people out there that i KNOW are going to be like "well, if you don't REALLY like them, then why did you go and stuff? you're just one of those people that know that one song from that one time" you know what, i don't care. a girl is entitled to go out, and have a good time. especially a girl like me who rarely goes out and does stuff like this. so anyway. here's the story.

alright, so i almost didn't even go. but thank god for candice not answering her phone, ahah. cause if she did, i wouldn't of gone.

so the line was REDICULOUS. so long. I should have gotten there earlier. anyway. so while in line, i was just looking at people and just admiring their style or whatever. a lot of people had cool hair. and then the tour buses are like RIGHT THERE. and we definitely say travis with out a shirt. yeah. he's so hot. hahaha. what can i say, i have a thing for redheads. hah. so yeah, we finally get in, and when we do, the "preshow" band i guess was playing. i think their name was delux? idk. so yeah, The Secret Handshake was so freaking amazing. I can't believe that I hadn't heard of them before last night. the intro was amazing. it was Kanye West's "Jesus Walks" and then like, it went into a song, hahah.

then, after that, they were setting up and such. i felt like a freaking idiot, cause I had no idea what any of the band members, of any group (except gabe from cobra starship) looked like. haah. and then yeah, we the kings came out. i felt bad, cause travis was sick. but then he was like "does anyone know cpr?" and everyone raised their hand. and then he was like, if i need cpr, just come up on stage... then we can make out. ahahha. he kept on talking about making out. god, i wouldn't mind with that boy. hahh. anyway, it was freaking hot. he said it was their hottest show ever, hahah. and then yeah. uhm.... he was like "who feels like death!!" and "we should all throw up in a bucket, and then toss it all over the crowd. then everyone would smell real nice" hahah. anyway, it was amazing, and i definitely have fell in love with them.

next... cobra freaking starship
wow. they were amazing. gabe is my new love. seriously. haah. they started out with the city is at war. i think gabe's in love with that one girl, victoria or something. haha, she looked a little high or something the whole time. ahah, oh well. so yeah, i can't remember the set up of this or anything, ahha. but he was amazing, and every time he reached down to like slap a hand, all these people would like be grabbing all over him. haha. i tried to wave to him, so he'd wave back.. but it didn't work. =/ oh well. it was SO good.

after the show, i went upstairs to this like.. balcony thing, and met the singer of TSH (luis) and travis. i went up there before the encore of Cobra Starship, and the encore was guilty pleasure, and i danced with the boys for WTK. but yeah, i met Luis and Travis(who smelled amazing. i told him that) but yeah. it was the best time ever, and i'm glad i went, even with today, when my ears are STILL ringing, and i can barely walk. oh well, you know? it's a day i'll remember for a long time, and I can't wait to go back for BLG and Metro Station July 6.

I've been in a weird mood lately...

I don't know what's going on.
Everything's been freaking me out.
I'm on edge.
I get irrated easily.


But, then again, I'm in an amazing mood
Getting things done.
Feeling productive.
Reading like crazy.

I think I read, because when I do... I'm in no pain. I have no thoughts. No fears. Nothing. It takes me to the world of the person that I'm reading about. I focus on them, instead of me. And... I like that.

Hmmm... music lately.
A lot of variety of things.
New music from Michelle. (I wonder how her non-date is going..)
New music from utorrent.
Just I don't know.
I think I'm living life to the fullest, considering..

Alright, that's it for now.

Bye.

New :]

Yeah, so I've been wanting one of these for a while, and I guess yeah, since I don't have a livejournal anymore, I'll have to get used to this. I like this though.


I've been reading a lot lately. Nothing inparticular, nothing that has really *strickin* me, but just reading.. I don't know. I'm just trying to figure stuff out that I've done, and stuff. Trying to figure out who I am. Rebuilding friendships. Starting over.

It's summer! And I'm loving every minute of it. Volunteering, going on long walks, talking to people. Enjoying life, man. Because, you know, life's to short to go through half ass. You have to give it your all, even when you don't feel like going through it.

Wow, I guess I'm feeling inspirational. I don't know.

Well, that's all for now I guess.

Later.